Musing 19

 9:29 PM

I'm on a call with my parents, a call I was waiting for the past one hour. No nothing important, I just want to get done with it and go to sleep. I've been sleeping for over 10 hrs since the last two days. 

I slept at about 10 pm yesterday and woke up after 8 in the morning. I didn't want to wake up even then but I had office. 

Getting up in the morning seems like a struggle. Surviving the day seems like a task. 

If I could i would disappear from everywhere or shrink to the size of an atom, become non existent basically. Or may be i would be a robot, that could be factory resetted. 

Sadly, none of the above is possible. 

Should I turn on the AC ? Will it be bad for my cold? I didn't realise i am having cold until someone pointed it out. Just because I can survive with a cold doesn't mean it's easy. 

 I have a habit of making things difficult for myself.I turn the AC on.

9:59 PM

The call has ended. I had nothing to say, i lied about dinner. I lay on the bed staring at the moving fan. 

There's no point to anything, I feel. There was no point in writing this too, and sharing it will be even more pointless. But I'll share it, I'm writing here after months. 

I can't do this anymore. Good night.