Musing -17

 3:42 PM

PAUSE

It's a Thursday afternoon. Dusty and windy! I call it the pollen season, people with allergies know. Slight burning sensation followed by water works has been a daily event for my eyes since Sunday. Not to forget the cold and cough, in the month of April. Anyways, we are not here to discuss my weekly health report.

I am noticing that I do not write in leisure. It's always the physically straining, mentally exhausting days when I have loads of work to get done and i somehow choose to pause everything ignoring the repercussions. Is it a quality? Yes, if you ask someone who romanticizes life. No, if you ask my superiors at work. What, me? Don't ask me. Okay if you insist, i would say it is a condition, i suffer from, with all my awareness. 

I was talking to a friend yesterday when I mentioned that I want to become a writer someday. He was kind enough to say that I already am one. I dodged it, like how i dodge all nice and kind words directed towards me. I don't believe I am a writer and there are thousands reasons to it. If I was one i would know for sure what I am writing right now. 

Anyone who puts thoughts to words has accepted his/her thoughts and is ready to share their minds with the world. I, in that case, check neither of the two boxes. The fact that I can't share my mind with the world makes my own thoughts unacceptable to me. Doesn't make sense, i know.

Since you and I both are here, and I'm running short of the time I paused about 20 minutes ago, I am quickly going to scribble some random things here. 

1. Waking up by rays of the sun hitting your face is not as peaceful as it sounds.

2. I need to watch Lootera and Dear Zindagi simultaneously to put my life together.

3. Imposter syndrome traits along with overthinking characteristics can make a good Imtiaz Ali movie.

4. The world doesn't stop even if you pause time.

Arey you waiting for no. 5? There's none. I am in charge here, atleast here.

 See you again on a busy day

PLAY!