Musing -14

 9:35 AM

I'm sitting on the carpet. It is a bit cold. I am alone right now, but somehow not lonely. 

In the past few days, I was surrounded by the people I love. I think I met everyone i wanted to meet. This was not the first time I met them, but somehow this time was different.

"If you will feel happy and successful only if you get a certain 'X', you have already failed."

There were no extraordinary things that I did. I cracked lame jokes, played games, narrated incidents with caricatures and gossiped, a lot! 

I was a little disheartened by the fact that the time I had was limited and has to be used judiciously.

I was a little disappointed when I didn't speak much on meeting a friend.

I was a little sad on realising how time was flying by. Soon all this would be over and we would return to our lives. But I didn't let those thoughts of future ruin my present.

I was happy that there were no phone screens between me and my people. 

I was happy that I got to watch my mom's expression live as she heard me talk nonstop.

I was happy to disturb my sister's sleep at midnight by just pushing her, and not giving her a call.

I didn't mind remaining a little quiet with someone because I was hopeful of being understood.

I was happy to have a bowl of even vanilla ice cream 'cause we shared it.

I was happy to not get enough sleep, to dance my heart out, to be completely exhausted.

I was so comforted by the warm presence of people that when I stepped out holding their hands, I failed to notice the cloudy skies. The sun was not shining but I smiled. The weather didn't matter.

All the little things that I never valued enough for chasing the 'greater' things, I am realising slowly, are the greatest things in life.

As Phil Dunphy said, "The most amazing things that can happen to a human being will happen to you, if you just lower your expectations."

I don't know if this fits in here but the best compliment I've got recently is that I've not changed one bit after college, and I'm way too happy about it. 

" In another world, circles and melodies kept their pure and rigid lines. But existence is a curve."

10:50 AM 

I wish I could only be happy but the other emotions are important too. That's why I will leave for work. 

Until next time!