Musing - 10

 I am scrolling aimlessly through my phone.

 It's not that I have nothing else to do, I just don't want to do anything else.

 It amuses me how I am never distracted towards other things when I am on my phone , and how it's not true vice versa. I have opened Instagram twice while writing the above two lines.

 I mostly have funny reels on my feed which I send to my two friends. A dark joke pops up. I send it to one of them. Someone else has sent me a reel. I watch it and react with a laughing emoji, all the while having a straight face. I continue  scrolling.

I stumble upon a good Bollywood song , which I forgot continued to exist. I quickly save it for song recommendations in the future, and pile it up with other similar videos. I plan to revisit them after the apocalypse or something. You never know! I make a mental note to play the song after the scrolling session ends.

 Another broken sense of humour joke pops up. I directly jump to read the comments. I forward it to my friend with the message "check the comment section!"

 I continue scrolling until I come across another reel, worthy enough to catch my attention. It's about one of my favourite shows, also quite relatable to me. Should I share it on my story?Na, too much social visibility! I continue scrolling.

 A video with cozy aesthetics pops up with a calming philosophical voiceover. Instead of calming me down it reminds me of all the problems and anxiety I am trying to escape by being on my phone. 

The reel is now playing on loop, but I'm not really listening. My mind is hovering over my life problems just like my thumb is hovering over the phone screen. I touch the screen once to mute it.

After a minute or two I come out of my reverie .My thoughts are all over the place but my eyes of fixated on the screen.

 I continue scrolling aimlessly through the phone. Still mute!